Being mom of a 3-month old is wonderful. The smiles, the cuddles! Life is good, I am not complaining. But making YouTube videos? Heck, I’m lucky when I get to have a shower!
Of course I knew that this would happen. Sort of. But experiencing it is different. Overwhelming, nearly mourning the loss of self. “Has my life really been reduced to this?” I wondered. The short and simple answer is: Yes, if you want to see it that way.
My hair is a mess, my YouTube channel is crickets. I’m itching to sketch, to write, to make, create, whatever tickles that part of the heart that just does not shut up when you try to ignore it. But I can’t. Not yet.
Life has been ‘reduced’ to caring for my little baby boy. To love and care for the most beautiful living being on planet Earth. My heart bursts with joy as I write this and I would not want it any other way. ❤️
So now I got myself a fancy hair styling tool to remind me that my time will come. I won’t be able to use it yet, but I can look at it! Remember who you are, remember who you want to be.
With love,
Heleen Charlotte
The Common Pencil 
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